July 30th!

July 30th Birthdays!!:
*ME!! (of course!)
*Joey Gizzi
*Henry Ford
*Lisa Kudrow
*Dean Edwards
*Mr.Monochi
*Aunt Caramel(my god mother!)
*Greg Husar(Ellen's son)
*Meagan Lavecchia
*Sarah Richardson(this is Salamander ruthie, lol)
*Mr.Zugabee of Zugibee hardware's daughter
*Lynn(from dads RCIA)
*Joey Dunn
*Arnold Swartenager
*Kevin Jackson's mother
*Liz Craig's, Aunt Jan
*Vivica A.Fox
*Neville Longbottom(for you Gong lol)
Its Also :
*The day Baltimore became a cuty (1729)
*The day Medicare was founded
*Comedy Celebration Day
*Love Day(from the Simpsons!! YAY!)

MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!

this is like my 15th birthday, well not like, it is lol!!! but im SO increadably excited, im so happy, i didnt sleep all night!! and i cant stop smiling!!! ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAY!!! i got up and i had bought this special new shampoo and soap and stuff,(it was yellow and it looked really cool, it was like... i dont remeber but it was cool!!) so i used that for my birthday, but then i read the back and saw the ingredients for the soap were the same as the ingredients for the shampoo, and i felt really dirty, so i washed up all again with GARNIER FRUTRICE this time!!!!!!!!! :):) i got on line and saw my lil' birthday email from ruthie!!!:) and then talked to danielle!!! OH this is my favorite day of the year!!!!!:):) My sisters friend who is in Arizona hiking now called me! and every one is talking to me:) and its my BIRTHDAY!!!!!!:) .ok so then i fell asleep cuz i never slept that night sincie i was so excited, and now i was tired lol. Then mommy woke me up, and we went to Rockland Bakery!! She bought 48! rolls! i was like "theres like 10 people comming", and she was like "Every one eats rolls!!!!"- oh she is so crazy, but i got a cookie out of it! ( the ones with the big black dot!- i love them!). I listened to that song by 5 For Fighting, like "15 theres still time for you!"(cuz im 15 lol). My sister ann walked 4 miles to get me special cookies i wanted! lol, but the store was closed -aw i felt bad. I talked to Vinny!!! and my sister called from her honeymoon. Than My PAR-TAY!!!: I AM SO GLAD I HAD IT, CUZ IT WAS IT WAS SOOOOO MUCH FUN!! :) Liz Craig got here first and supplied the awsome music! she is so increadably awsome, im really glad were friends! Ruthie came with her karioke machine! YAY RUTHIE!! Danielle Parisi came! -i felt bad cuz she didnt know anyone, but im happy she came! and Gong made her back from China debut!!( i love the hair!) Adam & Mary Elisabeth CAME! Im SO glad Mary came!!, And Adam got me like the the absolute BEST gift anyone could of ever give!: a cd with 18 songs!... ALL WONDERWALL!!!!!!!, and he got me like 5 million bags of chuckles!! aww hes so sweet!AND he played me the power ranger theme song!! YAY ABsolutly wonderful!! ( i think tonight i realized how much i REALLY like him, hes such a great guy! im really glad i know him, hes like an older brother:).. i really like evryone i met this year, but i dont nkow adams a really great guy... and i love the haircut!!) We played Cranium!!! and Jenny and Steve came over we watched Best of Will Ferral DVD! my cake had a picture of me on it!! lol. it was just such a great day!! Rob called to wish me a Happy Birthday, but he never came over:( - his day at work was too stressful, Mark has to do something for church so he couldnt make it either, but he stoopped by for like 5 minutes, just to say hi and stuff, then he had to go back to church - i thought that was REALLY nice of him!! like REALLY nice - Both him and adam sre really great people!:) - im so happy with the friends i have, cuz i really like all of them!... we sang karioke, and i got to sing FIGHTER!!!! YAY! - my dream lol. we tried to play Netendo too but it didnt work - another time adam!! sorry!! and my sister came home!!, and i know this is a REALLY long entry lol but ive had SUCH an awsome day!! and i just love all my friends so much! Like i just feel really happy! lol - i think this day was one of the happiest/best/fun/ days of my life! IT was absolutly perfect, and nothing could of made it better!! Thank you to every one who came to my little party! it was absolutly wonderful!!! And im just REALLY happy. And what a better way to end my birthday then listening to WonderWall.... 18 times!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY lol :) Goodnight!

MIDNIGHT!!!!!!

ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mrs.Drake Saves The Day!!

I think today i had the best lesson ever!! i LOVE mrs drake more than absolutly every other person on the face of the planet!! shes so wonderful, it seems no matter whats gogin on, i can always go to her house and have fun, i feel so comfortable around her!.. she made muffins (my birthday muffins!lol)  she had apple and choc. chip and danish and aw shes just so great!! so that turned around my day, i wish i saw her more often! aaaaannd NOW! i have to go fucking babysit. ugh, oh well at least i have my music :(  see yall later:)

Vincent's Birthday!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VINCENT!!!! ok aside from a birthday, im not happy. THANK GOD! im going ot see mrs. drake today!  i feel like being in a coma again! i just just dont know how to deal with things, i dont know what to do! rob has compleatly ignored me for a month doesnt answer my calls doesnt call me, im blocked from his screen name, and today i finally talk to him, and all he says is that hes coming late to my birthday, and didnt even apologize, like he coulda said sorry i havent been able to talk to you lately ive been busy, or something like that, but he ignored the fact hes been ignoring me, and it just hurts so much! im not even mad at him, and when i brought up the fact that hes been not talking to me, he alsway has perfect excuses which i mean, proly are true, but like i dont know what to say to him, i dont know what to say in the situation, i dont get it, and it really hurts. being able to talk to him about it, made me feel better, but i dont know, i like him alot, i just know he doesnt like me, or i DONT EVEN KNOW! i dont get what hes doing. but it hurts. i just thought we were friends, but i dont know how/what to do/say to him. *COMA!!!!!!! lol*... i cant wait to see mrs.drake!

Getting Ready For My Birthday!!

YAY!! I finally got in touch with mrs.drake, and i changed my time, so now i can see her for my birthday!! i was getting worried for a bit, cuz my mom kept telling me every time i wanted to go was an "inconvenience", but i got it all worked out:)! GONG is back from China! i can wait to see her i missed her SO much! i know i just met her this year but i feel like weve been friends forever! lol Im REALLY excited about my birthday! i have NO IDEA  whos gonna be at my house, but i just hope everyone has a good time. im so like worried that everythings gonna be a mess, and it will be boring, but im trying to just stay relaxed. i feel like the whole world is comming, but  now that i think about it, alot of people arnt home: juli is at the beach. kristas on a cruise, amanda and jena are in maryland, vinny is on his road trip, and rob, i dont even know if rob is still alive! Bu im kinda glad, cuz i didnt want a huge party. i just wanted a few friends over to chill, and just have a good time. Whatever will be, will be though. i guess. im So bad at the whole partyness thing anyway! i have no music, or anything, and i have NO IDEA what im doing, but im sure itll be fine! (i hope!) i want a big extravagant cake, but since im having people over i want acrowd pleaser lol. i usually go all crazy w/ cake. Last year i had a 7 layer choc. chip cake, and each layer had a different filling! but i think ill go simple this year. with simple flavors too lol (i made the mistake of thinking many people liked coconut cake in 2nd grade_ ill have to save that one for elf ruthie lol)    i tried very cherry snapple iced tea, and it was exciting cuz i had never heard of it. and i bought the pink orbit gum, and now my WHOLE room smeel like a big peice of bubble gum lol! OH! and i saw Adam today lol, ok well going to get ready for the super huge birthday extravaganza!! lol

RUNNING!!!!!

I just ran 3 miles in 15.02 minutes! and i think thats pretty damn good! i was running to the deli, and i realized running is prolly my favorite thing in the whole world! i was running and i just love it! its like flying, i cant even explain how much i just love to run, so i ran as fast as i could and once i got the deli i didnt want ot stop so i kept running, and i timed myself, 15.02. i was falling over when i was done but i was SO happy i was like lying on my driveway smiling!!! its just i realized how much i love it, if i had the endurance i would never stop running!! its the best thing ever! and if im old enough i REALLY want to run the midnight run with mr chanowsky!! ill have to talk to him! OH IM SO HAPPY!!:) AND! my daddy made raviollis with VODKA SAUCE!!!!!!! yay best night ever!!!!!!!!!!!:):):) and charlie brown is on!!!!!!!!!!!:)

Im a Chocoholic, only Im Addicted To Alcahol instead of Chocolate

I AM SO INCREADABLY BORED!!! Every one has jobs, now that ill be 15, mabye i should get one too? Just so i have something to do, and i realy need the money! ill prolly be getting money on my birthday though. i used to hate getting money and clothes for my birthday, i wanted FUN things!! but now all i want is money and clothes lol! Ive decided that year 15 in Johnny Macs life is going to be the "Year of John" this will be the most fufiling and meaningful year ever! lol, although i dont have a very good start since i havent even started my summer reading yet!, ill end up not doing it, and almost failing english again, but i def! need to do better in school this year. im also gonna work on getting a cell phone, cuz even though my parents are right and its kinda unessecary, i still want one, and i can rthink of reasons why they are handy! i also need eat better lol.. i mean it drives me crazy that my parents are all concerned about what i eat, Especially when my mom goes crazy and doesnt let me leave the house till i eat a "substansial" amount of food! but i mean i am bad. today i had a spoonful of cocanut for breakfast, and a cracker for lunch!, but i mean if our house was supplied with food i enjoy i would eat MUCH more!! i mean if we had penne all the time, id be fatter than... something really large(?) so i dont know i guess those are my goals for this year! OH and the year of John is also going to be the year of ruthie and john. we are gonna be awsome this year! well be walking down the red carpet by next summer! i have absolutly no idea what plans i have for the year for either of us, but something will work out! ok, i think im gonna go for a jog in the rain, and buy chuckles at the deli! lol im a dork! peace!

um i dont kow how to do this so ill send you an emailMy Birthday is Going To Be a Mess

I saw spiderman 2 in imax today! holy shit it was good the first time, but it felt like i was actually in the movie!! SPIDERMAN SPIDERMAN DOES WHAT EVER A SPIDER CAN! SPINS A WEB ANY SIZE CATHES THIVES JUST LIKE FLIES! LOOK OUT! HERE COME THE SPIDERMAN!! it was really good yall! I ended up going with my parents whiched sucked though. (LONG STORY) but it was so worth it cuz it was just SO awsome! and i finally got up enough courage to go back to chilis today! i love the restraunt, but i hadnt been there since the chicken crispers inccedent! ewwwwww! yuck! anyway i got the cajun chicken samwhich! it was good! CHILIS BABYBACK RIBS!  we had holly as our waitress again lol. and i saw mr roth! anyway i think my birthday is going to be a disaster! i have no idea who is and who is not comming, i just hope its a good time! and my mom isnt crazy about it. (she gets so crazed about food) but i just want to have fun! anyway i think thats it, ummm good luck on your date kevin lol! peace!

Me!

Ive been reading threw live journals, and hearing how everyone is going out and having fun, doing things, together, at places! Juli is having a party at the BEACH! and i walk outside to the backyard and get the third degree from my mother and am told to come back inside. i sit at home go out every now and then, and when i do i see a movie or something, im not allowed to hang out at the mall! i cant ride in peoples cars! i cant do anything with out going threw like a 2 day screening from my mother, and once shes ok, ive spent so much time "discusing" my plans to hang out, and watch a movie i dont even want to go anymore! I have to sit here alone, and hear about all the exciting fun things everyone else is doing! and its not like that is any different form before, but now im hearing about people i REALLY like ALOT! and it would be easier to not have friends at all, and just enjoy sitting alone in the house, cuz trying to even see people is such an arduous process!, but i like them so much to TRY and do something!...... and what annoys me the MOST is when my brother goes out with his friends, and my om says "oh john! i wish you had friends! go hang out with your brother, i want you to do something with your days!" and when i want to! she has so many comments and opinions and processes.  that i cant! she is evil!:(

Me!

 I was just reading threw peoples live journals and stuff. Everyone is going out and having fun, doing things together, at places, having fun! Juli is having a party on the BEACH! and i walk out into my backyard, and get a million questions from my mother, and am told to come back inside! Theese people are my age!,  dont get it! i sit at home, go out every now and then, when i do, i have to go threw the same like 2 day prosess with my mother, than finally once im so tired of "discusing" my plans to hang out with someone i dont want to go anymore! i do something like see a movie! im not even allowed to go hang out in the mall! i cant drive with other people! i get to sit, and keep my mother company! and hear about all the fun things my frinds are doing. Not that this is different than any other summer, but this time im hearing about people I ACTUALLY LIKE! and not about people who id rather not be hanging out with. Socilization is hard! it would be easier to not like people and just sit at home, i have things to do, but i REALLY like the people ive met this year, but its like WORK! to stay in touch with them!:(

Kevie J:)

Wow! you have a WHOLE entry named after you!! Pretty impressive. well i woke up late today and didnt do much except talk to kevin for like EVER!, i enjoy it, but dont think i can talk to ANYONE that long!~ i spent a large portion of the day on line. ugh, i hate it, but w/e. i watched Confessions of A Teenage Drama Queen today, it was REALLY good! no mean girls, but still enjoyable!, Lindsay Lohans character reminded me of myself sometimes lol.  and want to say i hate time, its SO weird and confusing, i wont get into depth, about why! but i think it is the WEIRDEST thing EVER!  but the three things i hate are: #1: time! #2: perspective! (which are both like closely linked!) and #3: sleep ( i gues they are all somehow coneccted to time. but it REALLY confuses me! ok night!

My Hair Is REALLY Soft And Fluffy: Like Clouds!

What Chineese Mothers Tell Their Children: "dont finish all your dinner!!!, there are obese children in America!"       -it makes just as much sense! lol

Wedding!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROB!!! He turned 19!!:) - i really need to get him a birthday preasant lol, but ive been so busy!):  .  SO anyway friday was the rehersal and dinner. Kevin Jackson came to our house. He is too funny, he didnt know how to get to the hotel. IT all went well, my sister has really cool friends! its fun to hang out w/ them. especially kevin! i wish you could just pick out your really good friends. cuz like i said before about the people i want to be friends w/ are all older people, but like my sisters friends are all madd cool, but i dont want them to be my friends ( theyre my sisters friends, not mine) but like i really wish kevin was my age. hes such a cool guy, and like talking to him! and  i have to keep reminding myself "this person is not my friend!" but the thing is i dont want to:/ but anyway i promised i wouldnt think too much on this. so the wedding was SO FUCKING AWSOME! i looked madd cute in a tux:) hehe. it was so weird too. i didnt cry, but i could of. to see my sister in her dress and everything. i was like "omg she is getting married, but shes my sister!" it was weird, but i was happy. i sang @ the wedding-pretty damn good!!lol. the picture lady was CrAzY. she was nice, but she  was weird. she had my sister like stop in the middle of a highway, and run across it for a picture, and we stopped at rail road trax, and she was just weird. and everything was a big gazing pose!  and we wanted to take a fun picture, and she was like "really?! something really fun!" and we were like YEAH an she was like ok well jumping is the ultimate form of fun, and i was just like what the hell. but it was cute. and then the tire on our limo broke down, and so there was the whole wedding party standing on the side of the highway, people driving by lol. we finally got rides from people lol. i danced my ass off at the wedding!!! omg it was so much fun!! then afterwards went back to the hotel w/ kevin, and stayed up till 4:30!! lol it was so fun! everyone was there! good times! and now that i ahve free time i need to start seeing yall again!! oh and Toni! Brendan Fehr (only w/ short hair!) is so damn hott!!! hehe

What I've Been Up To For Real

Anyway, its been a long time since i posted on this dorky thing. i dont know why i keep it? but we have been doing ALOT of cleaning, and getting ready for my sisters wedding. i got a brwak when i went ot the mall with ruthie. we saw spiderman 2 again. that movie was SO FUCKING AWSOME! my mother has been even crazier with all the wedding prep lol. Danielle Parisi invited me over for dinner the other day. her family is so nice! it was kinda weird though, cuz i hung out with her 20 year old brother, before i hung out with her outside of school. And i mean joey and i only hung out once, so i dont feel like hes my friend, but i know him on a friend basis, and now he was the i know him as a friends older brother basis. and it was weird cuz i felt like i was there to be his friend too! idk, that was strange but i still had ALOT of fun! (im so happy danielle is my friend! shes different from all the people i know from drama!) we watched the wizard of oz, with the dark side of the moon cd. I Did NOT  get it!  Ruthie was all like " dont you see it!!" but me and danielle were just like Huh!? lol it was funny. And we were talking about clothes/parents And i was saying how before i left the house my mom told me my shirt looked gay. And we were just like oh, w/e then joey got home, and had like the same exact shirt on lol (mabye it was a gay shirt lol) but that was funny. OH! and virginia was fun, saw spiderman 2 omg that movie was so fucking awsome!! i went hiking too. but mostly ive been spending alot of time with my sister and getting ready for the wedding.     Although the other day was the day where i had been broken up with rob for just as long as we went out. And it felt very intresting. To think about our friendship during two periods of time for the exact same time. It gave me a weird feeling - i thought alot that day. I mean i REALLY AM over it, i mean how could you still have feelings for someone you barely talk to anymore, but everytime i see a picture of him, he is just unbelivably adorable! At ANY age! hehe! and i get the stangest feelin. its not like "oh he is so cute!, i realy love himeyc." its different, its a special feeling i really cant describe. And although i get alot of feelings (not all happy:/) There is one that over powers all the others, i cant describe it, but there is something reashuring about it. (?) hmm, i think thats about it! ill mention Samantha Pagnotta cuz shes been really good to me lately, and weve bonded alot! But for the rest of my entries: more fun and less thinking!

What I've Been Up To!

Wow! Its been a long time, i had a few entries in here, but they all got deleated. So ill just breif from the end of my last blog till now.FIRST!  ive decided i dont like having a blog (mabye why i keep reduing them lol) I wanted to stop forever, but idk, i didnt. I feel like i have Alot,Alot,Alot of friends but no like best friend. and blogs dont help that! blogs are away to avoid socialization which builds relationships with people. Like if i want to talk to my friends, and tell them things, sometimes i just write an entry in my blog knowing that people will be reading the things i want them to hear, with out me actually telling them personaly. Its not good, cuz its making my relationshipd with people poor. I dont have many friends my own age, and the few that i have i dont nearly enjoy as much as you seniors and guys! I love you guys, and i wish we were all like the best of friends, and i mean like in school i saw you guys every day, and i mean ive kept intouch w/ you all over the summer, but im realizing i cant have the friendships i want! i talk to everyone alot still, but were at 2 very differnt points in our lives. And although we can stuill be friends, its not like were gonna be hanging out ALL the time, doing everything together, and thinking of each other. it will be more of a hangout every now and then, and just keep in touch, more of what i have with alot of my siblings friends, which is fine cuz there old, and not REALLY my friends. except for kevin (some of you may remeber him) hes mad cool, i wish he was my age, and my close friend too. but idk, my social life is so screwed up, and im using this blog as a way to indirectly socialize with people, i mean im not just "expressing my feelings" - i can do that in my head - i mean i wouldnt write something i didnt want people to know, any way enough feelings, my next entry will actually be about "what i have been up to" lol. i think i think too much.