Distance

I feel very unsatisfied and disconnected from everything. I am super close with my family, but I remember thinking when I was 12 that I was too close, and everyone was at a different point in their lives and I was from a different period I needed people my own age. Then I kinda separated from my family. Then we got super close close again. Mainly just my sister Mary Ellen. Now I feel very disconnected yet again. I feel so much younger. Just a totally different point of life than everyone else. They make me feel like I need to be married or have a life. I can't get a good grasp on time. And i feel like I need to step back from my family again. I also feel really isolated, but in the sense of just being caught in a world specific to only myself and my reality and I can't bring myself to fully connect with Ballroom, Stonybrook, drama, home and work friends anymore. I want to paint, and different things. I want to finish up all the slack on my year. Because its coming to a definitive yet cloudy end.

Keeps Gettin Better.