What I've Been Up To!

Wow! Its been a long time, i had a few entries in here, but they all got deleated. So ill just breif from the end of my last blog till now.FIRST!  ive decided i dont like having a blog (mabye why i keep reduing them lol) I wanted to stop forever, but idk, i didnt. I feel like i have Alot,Alot,Alot of friends but no like best friend. and blogs dont help that! blogs are away to avoid socialization which builds relationships with people. Like if i want to talk to my friends, and tell them things, sometimes i just write an entry in my blog knowing that people will be reading the things i want them to hear, with out me actually telling them personaly. Its not good, cuz its making my relationshipd with people poor. I dont have many friends my own age, and the few that i have i dont nearly enjoy as much as you seniors and guys! I love you guys, and i wish we were all like the best of friends, and i mean like in school i saw you guys every day, and i mean ive kept intouch w/ you all over the summer, but im realizing i cant have the friendships i want! i talk to everyone alot still, but were at 2 very differnt points in our lives. And although we can stuill be friends, its not like were gonna be hanging out ALL the time, doing everything together, and thinking of each other. it will be more of a hangout every now and then, and just keep in touch, more of what i have with alot of my siblings friends, which is fine cuz there old, and not REALLY my friends. except for kevin (some of you may remeber him) hes mad cool, i wish he was my age, and my close friend too. but idk, my social life is so screwed up, and im using this blog as a way to indirectly socialize with people, i mean im not just "expressing my feelings" - i can do that in my head - i mean i wouldnt write something i didnt want people to know, any way enough feelings, my next entry will actually be about "what i have been up to" lol. i think i think too much.