One Month After My Birthday

I got a sampler of Maple Syrup in the mail today! it had 4 grades of it! i made silver dollar pancakes to taste test, Grade B was the best! I love maple syrup!!!! yum yum!! and my sister Ann came home!! and we went on a big adventure, rock climbing down by the hudson river. it was a nice day! AND Karen Schriner won my August contest!! it was very unexpected! like one of those sudden twists on reality tv shows, she will get her prize!and for poor samantha, there will be monthly contests, so dont fret you still have a chance! ohh and i order my shoes!! i finally found shoes that ARENT newbalence and fit my monster feet!! im so happy! im getting my sambas!!HOLLA!!

"There Are Bigger Things Going On Here Than You and Me."

So my parents got mad at me, and they were Compleatly in the wrong. So I went for a 3 hour run while they were angry. Then they tried to buy my love back w/ material stuff. We ended up going to dinner and seeing a movie. I have been dying to see The Village (yay)but i hadda do it with my parents (sad) It was an increadably good movie, although I only wanted to see it in theaters, cuz i thought it would scare me! but it wasnt that kind of movie. So I was kinda let down by that, cuz i HATE people in movie theaters!! When you go to a movie you should WATCH THE MOVIE! Not Talk, Play with your cellular phone, See how far you can stretch your legs over the old ladys head infront of you!!! (which is a very fun game! but c'mon guys! not During the movie man!! The Movie was great, but would of been so much better if i had watched it alone. At the theater; in front of me were "The old people" who kept saying "oh, he reminds me of my son!" "oh yes, my son is so handsom!" IT was like a row of grandmothers!! they werent even watching the movie they were just doing grandmother gossip. Then to my right were my parentals-ugh. To the left were "the laughers" who just laughed threw out thr whole wovie: It Wasn't a Funny Movie!!!! then behindme were "the foregniers" who just said " swa gla cho so go ti mu" the whole time If they came to see an English film, at least be obnoxious in English! Why comment in foregineese? I hate people who speak another language when they know english ESP* when they are like takling to you, then like wisper some spanish thing to their friend right in front of you! *so annoying* Botton line Village =great moive, but the moral is rent out the whole theater before you go to see it! After that parents bought back the last bit of my love with some fudge from the Treat TRain! and... *CONTEST* If anyone can tell me what movie the title of this blog entry is from, who in the movie said it, and what was going on when that character said it! They will get a prize from me!: and it will be a real prize, like cake or candy or a toy or something--- this is the first Blog Contest for The Year of John!! Good Luck!!

I Dont Want Adam, Or Anyone Else To Leave!

I dont think i've ever been this upset in my whole life, its like when my sister moved to Virginia x50! I remeber i cried for like 2 days straight and i was upset for like 2 years untill this winter when i met Gong, Rob, and everybody else!! lol and now they are leaving me, and its even harder. I was expecting Amanda Friedman, or Gong to be the hardest to miss, but im REALLY sad about Adam!!!! and i mean im still gonna talk to him on line and its not like we really did much anyway, but im SO sad that hes leaving me! i think its cuz now that hes gone i dont have ANY male friends! he is my BEST friend that's a guy! I LOVE ADAM, and hes not even here for me to say goodbye!!:( im just sad. i know too many seniors.

IM REALLY SAD AND HAPPY

well it was a really good day, but i just saw Andrew Kimbark at A&P, i dont even know him, and i just thought how much im gonna miss people, like people i even go weeks with out ever seeing, im gonna REALLY miss:(!!!! i got up early this morning to see amanda friedman, and say goodbye:( im gonna miss her, i really cant believe how much im sad that adam is going, i hardley EVER see him as it is, but its just VERY upsetting to me, like i miss adam!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok i need to save this and come back and finish it when im not so upset:( ok im back but im still sad cuz i just got home from Stop and Shop and some mother LEFT her child there!!!!!!! there was some like 2 y/o girl screaming and crying cuz her mom left the store (the worker said a while ago) and left her child there, and never came back! i didnt get it, so that was upsetting. but on the positive i had a lesson with Mrs. Drake!!!!!!!! and i bought her a cannoli!! we hung out for like an hour! shes the best. her husband was a a big Karate thing, so he couldnt give me the sword info for Adam and Kevin, and mrs drake didnt know where it was(we both agree its weird), but she told me places to look on line, so ill do that for Adam! I MISS HIM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH! this if very upsetting! after mrs drakes i saw marsha and andrew at A&P. and i mean i saw amanda today, but i cant even see people im gona miss on there last night home!! Not Like I Ever See People, but IM Missing them! oh well i have to lok up stuff for adam, and make pudding. BYE!

GOASTBUSTERS!!!!

OH MY GOD!!!!! they are playing Goastbusters on the RADIO!!!!!!!!! that is awesome!!! ok, i REALLY want to go swimming, but i feel bad inviteing myself over peoples homes... so if your reading this and own a pool and like me, take a hint please!!!!!!!! i have gone twice this summer!!!!!!!:(:(:(:(

They Will Be Missed

This year i got to know some wonderful people i wish i could off spent more than one year with them, but they've made a trumendous impact on my life, and the will definatly be missed! *********ShOUt OuTs*********

ERIC BRENNER * LISA CASTELIANO * AMANDA CHARLES(the mosta adorable girl ever!) * MEGHAN CRUZ * NICK CULVER(nick!) * STEVE DELISIO * AMANDA EGGERS(beautiful) * NATALIS ESPINAL * KRISTEN FELCKER * VINNY FEMIA: I really like VINNY!! He takes getting used to, but once you know him, he is one of the greatest guys you'll ever know!! * ELMY FERNANDEZ * JOE FLACHS(ASSHOLE) * AMANDA FRIEDMAN:Amanda is absolutly one of the greatest human beings I have ever met in my whole life, I love her to death, and I think I'll miss her more than anyone! * MELISSA GITTER * JESSICA GIZZI * DUO-LA: MY GONGY!!!!! Gong you have been such a great friend, and your friendship means so much to me, you wil be missed! * ADAM GRANT * JESSICA GROSS(i couldnt leave her out, im basically putting in ever one i know) * HEATHER HARTOG * RAGHU KANUMALLA * KATHLEEN KELLY * ANDREW KIMBARK(i dont really know him) * Cassy King * BRENDAN MALONEY * AMANDA MCLAUGHLIN * LEE MICKLEN * KARISSA MOLLICONE * JENA MORANO(coolest human being ever!) * STEPHANIE PERALTA(can wear or look how ever she wants ans it will always be stylish! she could come to school with a freaking cat on her head and it would be cool!) * SAMMI PERONE * ERIK PHELAN * JARED RODRIGUEZ * KEVIN RODRIGUEZ(such a strnge boy) * Xavier Santos( i still have the yellow magic marker!) * REZA!! HAHAHAHA * ROBERT STEININGER * THOMAS STEININGER (iwas always scared of him, but hes a cool guy) * PAT TONKIN * MARK TURNNER(is the greatest GUY ever, hes just so awesome!) * ADAM YUDMAN(i dont even know what to say? your so odd, but i really like you! your like a brother figure, and i look up to you (which prolly isnt a good thing lol) but i do. being like "accepted" by you in drama was like so meaningful lol, it really was, even though we really dont do too much together, i cant belive how much im gonna miss you! your such a great guy - very odd - but awesome! you and mark are the only 2 guys i consider FRIENDS, and adam, i dont know how to say it cuz your a guy and its weird, but your friendship has really ment alot to me, and im gonna miss you!!)...i realize a saying this in a blog is a bit impersonal, but who am i kinding your the only person who actually reads this lol. ill miss you adam!


Goodbye guys and good luck in collage!!

Jenny's Sweet Sixteen!!

even though her birthday isnt untill september 2nd... HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENNY!!!!!!!! i hope you had a great day!!! and it was absolutly perfect for you!!!!!!! have a great year!! i realized i kinda wasted my summer this year, but oh well, thats ok, i guess, im gonna go out and do stuff everyday for this next 2 weeks!!!! went to steves concert, it was VERY good... even though everyone laughed at living the vida loca(understandabl), i thought it was REALLY!!!!! good!! like it was awesome, i mean i LOVE steves voice, but that was awesome!!!!!!. it was a good day. i like steve, cuz were not friends, but we like kinda are, but hes my frinds boyfriend... like i talk to him comfortably, but its not a friendship.. i like it, and hes a cool guy..and, This sentence is being dedicated to Kevin Rodriguez. It is spelt in proper english, and you can read it! i didnt use spell cheack or anything, all johnny mac's brain!! (and the varification of spelt being a word, by nicole pagnotta... a very sophisticated word at that!!.... sometimes i feel like everybody doesnt like me, like my friendships with people are just them secritly laughing at me for thinking they like me...Johnny Mac got played out! lol, but fer real it, did, i mean i didnt really like being obsessed about, but now i feel like everyone thinks im an annoying fag,w/e if people dont like me, that realy makes me sad, cuz its like my biggest fearto not be liked, but they are goign to collage so i guess its alright:(. my dream is to walk into a room, anthe sight of me makes everybody happy!!! lol... i tok some madd long survey from krista, mayhaps il post it??? boring though, oh well i usualy never do thid cuz i thinkits gay but:(it refers to me mistreating the enlight lamguage)
MusicaLvLcy61311: Because then it just means that you are too lazy. And that you don't appreciate the language or respect it
Lolygager5: i dont appreciate the language or respect it, i wish we could communicate with just like sounds and stuff and didnt actually have to coherently speak, but everything is just understood

A Day With Danielle

Went to Danielles today!!! i havent sen her all summer, and i really missed her! we caought up no old times, and she got me a cannoli!! we went swimming and jessica burke stopped by for a bit, we walked to her Aunt Ange's house. she was funy, it was cool. and we loked at pictures, and even though Rob just seems like a dream now, seeing the pictures kinda hurt(?) w/e it was a REALLY good day and i finally got to sign her yearbook!... I HAD MY FIRST SEX DREAM IN MY WHOLE LIFE LAST NIGHT, AND IT WAS WITH 2 GIRLS???? ok im confused blogs are gay, and i have to go talk to people!!

What A Day!

well i woke up, and looked in the mirror and screamed b/c i was ugly!!my eyes were all messed up, they had shifted, my skin was SO pale. andmy hair was bad, so i went for a run. and i saw the hottest guy in thewhole world!!! omg he had blonde hair, and this sexy tan, and hisjeans were loose enough so you could see how his butt wasnt tan, andhe had the tightest nicest butt ever!!!! and he had muscles,but notgross lotsa muscles, just the perfect, and he WAS gorgeous!!!, oh godhe was the best looking person ever!! my eyes were better after therun... ever since i started wearing contacts my eyes have been crap! iused to have really nice eyes that were shinny and nice, and everyoneused to compliment them, but now they are dull and yukky, and half thetime they are bloodshot. Aslo today, i mowed the lawn:(, ever since my dad got sick and i told him id help with stuff around the house, ive had to do SO much work it sucks!!, and i realy wasnt good at mowing the lawn, i couldnt see where the grass was cut, and what still had to be cut, it was really hard!! im not used to helping my family or anyone but myself for that matter, and of late, ive begining to have feelings for other people like where i actually feel bad and stuff, like my aunt cant live on her own anymore, and i know its gonna kill her and i feel bad, i feel bad for adam, i feel bad for jon in kentucky. im becomeing less ruthless, and getting a sole lol. and i found shoes that fit me! it has been What-A-Day!

Sister's Day

was yesterday, and it was nice. i FEEL LIKE I HAVE TO GO TO SCVHOOL TOMARROW AND IT IS SUCH NOT A GOOD FEELING!!!!!!!!! im not ready to go baAaAaAaAack yet!!!!!! ::shmergal:: hurumph!! anyway school = bad!! and i have to say i slept 8 hours in 3 days and i am VERY proud of myself!!. and i have to say, i hope Adam Yudamn has the absolute BEST school year of his life this year!! and that by the time school is over hes enjoying himself so much he will never want to leave!! just that hes happy and enjoys himself, an gets good grades!!! and just i hope Adam, has an awesome year!!

Along Came Polly

I watched 50 First Dates today, and the dvd was messed up so it kept repeating, and i thought that was ironic! and i had the BEST cookies in the whole world today! they were AMAZING!! i got them from Ruby et Violette on 50th between 9th and 10th, in the city!!!! OMG they are the absolute best cokies ever! i had Champagne, Lemon White Chocolate, Kitchen Sink, Cherry, Peach, and Mint!!!! Kitchen Sink was DELICIOUS!!!! everyone should try them!!!!!!!!!!:)

SEX!!SEX!!SEX!!

I just saw the dumbest thing ever. you know how when you sign on line a guy says "Welcome youve got mail" i can pay money to have celbreties record their voice instead. how ubsurd! i want a new blog, but thats absolutly rIdiculous! so i think im just gonna have this one and then another one., like 2 i dont know, im rediculous. Today i went out and lied my fair irish skin in the beating rays of the sun, while eating a bowl of yougurt with cancer inducing chemicals, then chewed gum with the sam cancer inducing chemicals, while reading a prochure of the cancer ward in nyak hospital! oh god, no blogging for 4 days!

You Cant Alwasy Get What You Want

Im slightly upset, i HATE HATE HATE this blog, i dont want ot be writing this entry,yet for some reason, i continue writing in it? i realized alot today, some sad things, but im accepting it the best i can. its hard, but "You Cant Alwasy Get What You Want". i went running today, and Adam stod me up, AGAIN!. i just finished my summer reading, it was enjoyable, but i HATE that now i have to anylyze it, it was good book, now forget about it. oh well. i have gone swimming ONCE this whoel summer, and im upsert about it, ill have to make up for it this week! ok i have said enough. SAD:(

For Adam Yudman

Hello, this post is being written in proper English, with correct spelling and grammar. After reading Adams comment I'm taking the time to think before I type, and make this entry 100% coherent. Adam when you took the time to write a comment on my blog, you could have responded to my question of if you thought it was a good idea or a bad idea to start a new one, although I'm looking at ending this all together. Okay just writing this has taken an EXTREME amount of effort so I have to stop, since I hate effort! I hope every one is happy they can finally fully understand at least one of my entries.

Every Time I Eat I Get Sick

ok i need to write an entry cuz blogger is stupid, and stuff never works... also im thinking of ending this blog, and i know thats rediculous! but there are SOOOOOO many entrys on this one, and its unorganized and messy, its annoying that i keep changing them, but if your reading it youll see the new link on the old blog, its my OCD, i guess, but ive had this BLog too long and i need a fresh start, i dont like it when i start blogging everyday, and they get redundant and annoying. i should just STOP all together,(and get grammer lessons) but im sorry im weird, im just i dont like to go over 25 entrys cuz thats too many!! i think this is nearing its end, perhaps all together, i dont know. ill see what people think.. i would also appreciate COMMENTS! on here guys! ugh alright lets see if this fixes blogger. BYE!

My Tummy Hurts!

IM DYING!!!! im still lathargic!, and now my tunny hurts, and i have theese things on my arm it looks like drops of water, but they dont wipe off, and im dying!!!!!!!!!!!!! My sleeping is getting better though, although last night i had a weird dream: i was in church, and the priest was passing out roses to all the people there, and i knew not ot take one, cuz the peopl who dicided to keep the rose, were going to go on this retreat that converted them into communists. so i knew this, and they passed out the roses, so i turned around and warned Krista not to take a rose, cuz it was all part of our crazy communist priest plans to destroy the universe! she didnt understand, but she listened, allthe little children at the mass took the roses, and there was this big cerimony, and while it was going on me and Krista were trying to figure out aplan to stop the communist proests, and Mrs.Zariello came by and brought Krista Reese Peices, adn then helpped us think of a plan, but then silence was commanded by the communist preist leader, so we had to find out seats, i ended up sitting next to DAR her mother and Nicky. The head communist preist started goign over the new strict rules that good catholics should live by (the rules of communism, of course) then DARS mom offered me Rice Pudding, so the 4 of us were all eating rice pudding while the priest was talking, and then it came time for communion, and the preist yelled "BLASTPHEMERS" and pointed to the Aquino-Rothmeyer family and i. he was like "Why art the consuming riced pudding in thy church?" and Nickys family was just liike what thehell were not even catholic, and then left, but my dad grabbed me and was like i will give him the proper punishment, and i was like" NO! Dad your being brainwashed by the communists" and every one gasped cuz they knew i was refering to the preists then Krista and Mrs Zariello came to defend me but they were grabbed to and we were all brought to a Communist Training Concentration Camp. and everyone was was like all " We listen to our priests" and i was like "NNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!" and then Mrs. Zariello turned to me and was like oh the priest arnt bad, and Krista and i were like "No not you too!" and then i was like omg what am i gonna do but then i woke up cuz it was time for church... i kinda didnt want to go. but eh, i thought it was an intresting dream. OH and i have news!! i tried a new product of Paul Newman! they are Ginger-O's there REALLY good and i recommend that everyone try them!! PAUL NEWMAN ROCKS!!!!

I Dont Want To Be Writing This...

... but i am?. anyway first of all: i REALLY wanna go swimming!!!!!!!!!!!! i have gone ONCE this summa, im missin it! i went and saw the fire works at peekskill, with meghan on her boat. they were fun! i LOVE fireworks:) and i have TWO dilemas, and samantha hasnt been her latey for me to get advice:/, im dying with out you!!!!! ok this should have never been written, The End!

Sleep:(

OMG im still sleeping forever, but i keep having these crazy REALISTIC dreams too!! Its horrible!! the other day i dremt i was sleeping and i couldnt wake up, there stupid but they are driving me crazy!. but last night was the worst! back in like jan/feb/march i had this reacuring dream that me and robert were walking down hammond road, and robert would be attacted(by dog, or bad guys, w/e) and i would save his life, like id wrestle the dog off him, or beat up the bad guys, and then everything would be alright, i used to have it ALL the time, but untill last night, i hadnt had it since like march, but last night it was different, when i went ot save roberts life, i gave my own instead like i beat up the bad guys or the dogs w/e , but then i was in the hospital dying. and when i was in the hospital this time, every one came to see me, even Miss. Bernardo was there! but Rob never came to visit me, i was dying, and the whole duration of my hospital stay, rob never came to say good bye. and one night i started scream, "JUST LET HIM KNOW I LOVE HIM< JUST LET HIM KNOW I LOVE HIM!" and i was like making a huge sene, and nurses had to come in and try to calm me down and stuff, and while this was going on, robert had come to visit me, and he hear what was going on and was like this is rediculous, and turned around to leave, and Adam was like omg robert hes still your friend! and hes DYING!! how can you just leave him?? and rob started making excuses, very ligitamet ones, but not ligitement enough for not seeing a dying friend, and as soon as i saw the door shut, i woke up.. im assuming that ment i died, cuz they say you dont die in dreams( which is a load of bull, but i woke then) but it was SO scary, not like scary AHHHHH!!!!*cold sweat* scary like wow! that was realistic and scary! i dont know, but im tired of sleeping SO much, its driving me mad!... anyway i got my summer reading today grrr, thats when summer can NO longer be enjoyed!! so i better go read:(

Thanks For Making Me A FIGHTER!

I think im dying! i sleep for like 13 hours a day!! - thats more than 1/2 the day!- and usually i never sleep like more than 6 hours, and im annoyed cuz i HATE sleep, and i feel like im wasting my day:(. But i think i sleep so much its b/c im dying! cuz i have other symptoms of death too! like i cant eat, i get sick after eating like a cracker, and im never hungry (loss of appetite), i STILL cant breath, im taking my inhaler w/ me when i run now. ALL signs of death! - its prolly all the PHENYLANINE i eat. i dont know, anyway i went to TOwer Records today, there are so many CD's i want! STRIPPED!!!, and others, but im SO cheap! everything LessThanJake was only $10, and i am SO cheap. I saw Nick Culver while i was out too. i realized today that being gay prevents me from living the kind of life style i want! i saw this REALLY cute guy out today, and if it were a guy/girl sitchuation, i could of like flirted with him (her), but being gay [ you dont nkow who else is gay] so you cant just randomly go up to cute guys and start talking, cuz if i did that id be murdered by now. But like if i liked girls, i could go up and talk to the pretty ones -it doesnt work that way for gays! Its hard. ok lesson with mrs drake!!! krista and brian!

Dream

I juat slept for 13 hours!!!! and i had this dream that i kept waking up and doing stuff, but then i would fall down and i would be sleeping! it was SOOO annoying!! I COULDNT WAKE UP!!............ I finally got ot play tennis with vincent today!!! but the coart was being redone, so we couldnt actually play lol, but we drove to the hs and back!! aw yay! ... hes growing facial hair lol, it looks a bit odd. Jenny came over today, it was fun! i REALLY like her, im upset her and i arent in the same lunch though, no more tanning:( lol. but her and i watched les mis together, and hung out it was a good time! she told me what people used to say before i was "out" lol, it was funny. i Really like Steve too, hes a real cool guy! Adam ditched us to play poker, im still looking foward to watching x-men!! i have twizlers for adam too. and OMG! i watched the Hunchback of Notredmae! while i was doing work! that is a sadd scary movie!!! i almost cried!! theres a whole song called Hell's Fire!!, anyway good day!, bye!.. OH and steve sings SOOOOO well!!!!!!!!! WOW!

Chris Confrey

ok, so as we all know this is the Year of John (aw you cant underline things), but anyway, The Year of John, has a theme song!. its 100 Years by Five For Fighting: the one thats like "15 thiers still time for you", it is clearly the perfect theme song!. i went on a madd long run today and did ALOT! of thinking, i was thiking about my friendships with people(?) i saw chris confreys mom in the store today, i dont know. i miss him! he used to be my BEST friend, and i havent talked to him since like november, and i really miss him. im gonna start talkign to him again. my social life has been so screwed up my whole life, i just did alot of thinking. ruthie,liz, krista, jenny, i can talk to them like friends. i love adam and mark and all them to death, but i always feel like they are better than me or something lol and i cant talk to them as well:/ i dont know? but i spent 3 hours runing and thinking lol i love running! what a good way to start off the Year of John!, but like Chris was more of someone i had to compeate with than someone who was my friend. Rob, always reminded me of Chris, and i thik thats why i always felt Rob was someone i had to try and "keep" like i felt, if i wasnt always "on" trying to be the "perfect person" (wow thats alot of quotes lol) but like i was ALWAYS trying to be the perfect person for rob and not myself, and i think thats cuz me and rob reminded me of me and chris (mabye cuz chris was prolly the person who i coulda called my bestfriend) but he was like a smaller cuter better version of me!, we did everythig together, and he alwasy had ot better than me! he quit track, but i was always trying to be chris's friend, and not myself, (i mean only to an extent in both situatins!, but still) and i want to start tlakign to Chris again and be myself, if he hates me i dont care, ill never see him again, but the thing about that was, i knew Chris always liked me, and the only times he didnt was when it made him look better, kinda like me and my cousin elizabeth when we were little, but i dont know I liked Chris, and i still kinda wish we were friends, its not like anythign went wrong, we just went o 2 different schools, and werent as close outside of school, but just knowing Chris, has REALLY effect the way i approch relationships with people(?)

Francis Crick Died

OK, i HATE mrs, santillo!! (is that even right? shes married, but is that still her name?) anyway!! she such a minipulative bitch! ok last year i didnt join chorus, but she wouldnt give me the music to audition for the musical unless i joined her dumb class. ( 1st of all that was horrible, and im sure she could of gotten in trouble for it) so i did chorus, but i never actually signed up for it. but when i did, i never went, so you would think she'd understand i hated it, and i didnt want to be there! so i hated it so i didnt sign up for it this year, and she went to guidence and changed my schedule and took me out of ap european history... that made me really mad, and just as i was considering it that compleatly turned me off. so i fixed that, and now i get my schedule, and im still in shorus!, mi a lil annoyed with my gudence counsler too! but i like mrs seward and i hate mrs santillo, so eh. but im just SO angry!!! i HATE chorus, SO much!! i love singing, but i dont like chorus, i LOVE running, but i dont do track so i can to music, i hate mrs santillo, and im just so angry!!!< i would like to know who else is in the class though, cuz if theres alot of great people id take it, but krista has it a different period, and i hate it and i hate the teacher so, im thinking of dropping it:( i am just SO angry!! ugh, and im sad i have no classes with Krista:( i dont care about anyone else, just her! well well be in drama, although that will suck cuz mrs santillo might be doing it! .....ok changing the topic: i need to quit gum! or at least cut down. its like ciggerttes lol, i chew a pack a day!! and yesterday my sisters husband telles me theres somehting in it that causes cancer!, ok im tirted of typing

ITS SO HOT OUT!!!

OMG it is 5billion degrees outside!! ok its like august 2nd and im still like all happy about my awsome birthday! i got a card from kevin in the mail today, it was nice, just as the birthdayness was dying down, he started it back up again! YAY! but still july 30 2004 was like one of the best days of my life!!-im still happy from it!, but i have been sickish lately. i usualy NEVER sleep AT ALL, like 6 hours is ALOT for me, but ive been sleeping for like 12 hours aday. ive been so tired and lathargic. and i have no appatite, and i think i have a disease. and im over reacting, but till this year i have NEVER been sick, and now being so unhealthy is concerning. but eh we will see, if i die, i had a good run! my sister and her husband came back from thier honeymoon, and brought me a bunch of candy that you cant buy in america for my birthday! lol, and doug(my new brother-in-law) he went running with me!!!!! i alwasy want to run with people, but no one ever wants to go. i wish ADAM! would come with me one day!!, but anyway doug came and it was REALLY nice cuz i had a friend to go running with:) he was madd slow, but it was still REALLY nice!, i wish i had a partner more often! SEE! now im so tired and i slept till like 1:30 today!:( this is concerning! i HATE sleep, but im gonna take a nap! tata!