John Edwards is SOOO Cute!!

NO HOMEWORK! school is way too much work for me!! I just counted all the change on my dresser that bilt up over the summer, i had 24 dollars! i was very happy! i bought Liz CRaig a presant with it:) The Drama play isnt as good as i thought, the play is actually quite stupid, but i really like my part, and Liz and Ruthie.. and it turns out Morgan is pretty good! I think its going to go well, i hope everyone can make it down to watch! You know you all havent failed to correct me on words i actually know how to spell (except rIdiculous, which after i was yelled i never forgot!) but you have all failed to correct the fact i spell "these" theese! i almost lost 10 points for spelli g that wrong so much, well its not anyones fault but myself. And i want a pet goat! i think it would be cool, but i think its illegal in the area?

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I just signed on, and i had 20 emails! and none were spam! they were all from actually friends! it made me feel good!

The Real Boring World

... is what they call the Amish version of the Real World. (Samantha do you know what thats from?, I'd be impressed) So my sister graduated from PA school today, it was nice, i missed my first drama rehersal(im sooo excited!! im a crazy nervous breakdown lunatic!, im so excited), but my sister one 2 big awards, and got some work published, it was good, the only thing was they were playing like dance party music? it was weird lol, it was funny! omg, i have watched Mean Girls 6 times!!, it was a god movie but i think i over did it, i had ma peeps over to all watchit together (ruthie made yummy dip!!), i felt bad i never called Mary Elisabeth, but after Danielle Parisi left, it ended up being a read threw of the script!!, LIZ CRAIG IS SOOOO FUNNY!!! she gets to play "Hysterical Women"... this play is going to be soo funny! We did this excersice scene, omg everyone needs to come and see this! and i get to play this sleezy guy at one part and i use a Robert Gulet voice, its soo funny! im really excited! Also i made it avalibe for non-blog owners to make a comment on my blog! (AMANDA GONG!) and this months blog comtest is What english word features all the vowels in alphabetical order?

I'm Not In The U.S.A

I'm getting realy tired of this game, and i wish someone would win and get there dessert already!! anyway madd good past 2 days!!!! start with yesterday!: MEANGIRLS!!!, they caled the bass, and tenor section in chorus, John and the boys! and when i was on the lunch line the lady had me try samples of the meats then told me shed fix me somethat tasted good, and started mixing things together, and put a bunch a stuff on my wrap, and folded and cut it for me!!!:) YAY! now for today!!! I GOT A PART IN THE STRAIGHT PLAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im soooooooo happy!!! i think its a small part, but i think its madd funny!! Im like this crazy band director who everyone hates!! and i compose a song that sucks but i think its awesome!!! im soo excited!! and liz craig got a part too!!!! jenny didnt though which greatly schocked me cuz she was like the best one there i though!! so that was surprising i feel bad, but shes liz's US so thats cool i guess? oh boy im soo happy!!!!! al though i cant make my first rehersal!!:( sad! but still happy!! okay, gonna go watch mean girlsa again!! YAY!

I'm Not In A Country That Begins With The Letters V-Z*

I went to Liz Craig's tennis game!!! and i had such an aweseome dream! i dremt i went to disney world and it was like madd not crowded. and Mark Turnner worked there, so we were going on all the rides together, but i got lost and it was getting dark, so Makr had to come and rescue me!! then he helped me find my parents!! YAY MARK! Mark and Adam are so aweosme!! i bought Mean Girls and im ending this post so i can go watch it!!!!!!!!!! you cant possible grasp how excited i am right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:D PS(i think Gong is coming home this weekend!YAY)

I'm Not In A Country That Begins With The Letters A-Q*

OKAY! first i have to say im dissapointed that no one has figured out my Game, but mabye thats a good thing, cuz i didnt really want anyone reading theese past few ebtries, but Adam, NIcole, Others PATHETIC!!! Samantha is the only loyal reader of the blog!!!! you all should be ashamed!! tisk tisk! ANYWAYYYYYY now that im writing in this i may as well continue with stuff... first of all 3 very important things happened today!! #1: Mean Girls came out on DVD today #2: CarWash comes out on CD and #3: Lemony Snicket's book the 11th came out (a serisi that i highly recomend, especially to Vincent, if he hasnt read them yet). With that out of the way, i think i like being in stupid english, everything is soooo easy, and i get prizes for being smart!, although i do really miss the challenge... We got Roche in the mail yesterday, i dont know who it was form, but i ate it anyway- i hope i dont die!, okay my loyal Samantha apparently you will bw winning all 13 more gomes for the rest of the Year cuz your the only loyla blog reader!!! heh ta ta!

I'm Not In Asia*

OKAY im very very mad at ANYONE who saw me today!! i get home from school and look in the mirror, and my hair was ridiculous! half was like standing up the other half was like sideways, it looked ubsurd!! WHY DIDNT ANY ONE TELL ME!!!! aaannnnddddd it was picture day!! oh well i hope it wasnt like that during the begining of the day!, i cant belive no one said anything... and today in French class it was madd weird, my french teacher just stood there, and said "french,french,french" like as if she was speaking, but that was the only word she could say. w/e madd at "friends" who dont tell me when i look ridiculous!

I'm Not In Canada*

Vacation is over:( i hate school i really dont want to go back, at least i find out if i got a part in the play. But im gonna miss seeing people. BOO COLLEGE! ya know, at the end of school i thought i was gonna miss Amanda and Vinny and AmandaGong, and people sooo much, but then it turned out i dont even tlaked to them! The one good thing form college was (sor lack of a better word) weeded out people, and showed me who my real friends were, not people who just talked to me while in highschool. and im thinking about not writing in here, cuz nobody reads this!!, ill keep playing my dumb Year of John games, but i think this blog is over with for the most part. and im serious this time!

I'm Not In The Southern Hemisphere*

My moms an idiot. Okay so after Ronie's swim meet, Jenny, Adam, and I went to Steve's house. and then we went to the mall. i figured i should call my family to tell them where i was. i get on the phone and say "hi im hanging out with Adam Jenny and Steve" and my mom goes "ok, just dont go to the mall" so i was like uhhh ok (i was already there) so w/e we did stuff at the mall and i get home, and my mom is like "i called Steves house, and his Dad said you left 15 minutes ago" so i lied and said i was in the car, we were hanging out, and got hungry so went to ciceros, then instead of coming back to Steves house we went to B&N( in Nanuet). and shes going on and on about how i have to be honest with her, and shes such a idiot!! she going on and on and so shes like im never getting you a cell phone, if your gonna be like this (should this prove i need one?) and shes like from now on you have to call me every 20 minutes when your not home... shes crazy!!!! i made a point to say Adam Jenny and Steve didnt have to call there parents when we didnt go back to Steve's, but she was like your always trying to lie to me... so my dad had to come and save the day, but now i cant go visit Adam and MArk and people in Abany next weekend with Liz Craig anymore... oh,well.... my mom is just so fucking stupid.... and im going blind, like for real.

I'm Not In Virginia*

I've been thinking way too much, so I went on a long, head-clearing jog/walk, and I kinda orginized the thoughts I've bben having, and the things that have been bothering me.


1. I use this blog too much
2. I HATE school!!!!!!!! (and College)
3. My best friends are Jenny, Adam, Liz, and Mark
4. I barely see the people I coinsider my bestfriends
5. The world/life is NOT a utopian society, but arguments don't have to last for ever, people have a lot of say in how there life goes
6. People perceive things differently, which leads to false assumptions
7. I like having friends; I like having friends who are guys.
8. I don't want to be gay
9. I worry too much about what people think of me
10. People aren't always the same around you as they are around other people


* I also realized why so many people hate the person who can't get anything past herself. - I think you all go way to far about it, I still like her, but I can see why you all hate her.

I Must Really Like Adam...

i just realized i cut up my complete perfect condition power ranger sticker collection ive had since i was like 5, to decorate a sign for Adams semi-birthday party that will only be used for that one night and never again. i dont think i realized what i was doing though? i guess if i did it, it was worth it though? wow, im amazed by myself, cuz that was a big thing for me.

Thinkingfullness

sometimes i get into theese things where i just think alot, about stuff...

its really weird how people perseve things, especially in a relationship. for some reason everyone always seems to come to me to talk about there problems so i have heard a lot of things and a lot of different senarios... but like society has giving a "role" to the male and the female in a relationship. and being gay, i realized while being in a relationship with Rob, then watching people like Jenny and Mark and stuff that im able to switch between steriotypical male/female roles. like the guy is the one who pays for stuff puts his arm around the girl etc... the girl is the one whos treated special by the guy, and cuddles in his arms, and being gay those roles are interchangable. which gives me a point of view from both sides in other peoples relationships, and its strange to see how people think. guys REALLY CANT understand girls, its absolutly amazing! i give credit to the girl who can break up with the guy... buts its so weird how i can watch to people, and compleatly see where the girl and the guy are coming from (usually the girl is right, in where she stands) but i noticed the girl is better at understanding at where the guy is comming from when he does stuff. Guys are dumb lol, like they can totally not see anything past what they are thinking. its really astonishing how thick they are. like dont get me wrong being a guy i can see where they are coming from but being gay i can see how wrong they are at thinking about girls. GUYS DONT UNDERSTAND GIRLS! In a relationship, there are 2 options, your together forever, until your dead, or at one point you break up. the guy who breaks up with the girl, thats simple, the man is dominant in the relationship, and when what he thinks what he thinks is correct then its no problem. But the girl that can know that even though she still loves him (both people still love each other in a relationship breakup, so its hard for both) but that its time to have this over with, i give alot of credit... i would have said that if you love someone then why break up, but ive learned love is really not such a special thing. some one who loves someone but knows its over. WOW! but like even after that the person might think they made a mistake cuz they still have feelings for each other, but that doesnt go away, until you stop spending time together. Love isnt as marvoules as its made out to be. like you ARE in love with some, just as easlily as you ARENT, thats a pretty depressing way to put it but its true, feelings dont go away EVER, but well let me say: i loved Rob we broke up and i was sad, i got over it, and now i kinda like someone else a little, but that feeling for Rob hasnt left me... but i certainly dont love him anymore. i dont love the other new person i kinda like either though... hmm? im tired enough thinking for tonight!

I Am Still Beautiful...

isnt that the best song... ever... created... by humnas! (its not like my favorite, but oh its just the best song ever! what i just realized is that im speanding a one whole day sight seeing in LA, and thats where Christina Aguilera lives!! i know thats like thinking im gonna see a bunch a famous peopl cuz im goign to newyork... but LA is smaller, and she does live there... if i like got her autographer, or even just looked at her in person i think id like faint or something, it would br the best day of me life!!!!! "So dont you bring me down today"

Ride Home

Grrrrrrrr. I stayed after school to talk to Jenny, and then i needed to get home, Julia Andrews offered me a ride, but she had other things to do, so i was like dont worry about it ill catch the bus, but i missed the bus tlaking to Jenny, so then i asked Joey for a ride,and he doesnt like me, so i called hom and there was no answer so then Toniann drove me to ruthies where i called again no answer so i walked home, and i saw Julia drive by (i should of just said yes to her) and then i walked all; the way to the broken bride and couldnt cross so i had to turn around and go back threw resivor, untill finally i get to my drive way and my parents come home! ugh not fun.

Boys

Mark came home today, and i went to the football game with him. it made me feel good, cuz i felt like we were friends!.. i know that sounds like the most idiotic thing ever, but i dont have any friends who ARENT girls:(, and like it was just me and Mark(who is the most not-a-girl guy i know) and we were like gettign along, it was cool.... i wish i could be friends with boys:( i love Jenny, and Liz and Krista, but it sucks always being the only boy in everything:( Mark is cool. just, like, we were doing stuff good friends do, ive never experienced that before... with a guy. i really wish all my friends werent girls, it was so like cool, to hang out with a guy, and be like FRIENDS with him... im sorry this was just cool for me! i hate school!

30 Year Old Kool-Aid!

School is better I guess? I REALLY miss last year though, but I like my classes i guess? English feels like KINDERGADEN!!!!!!!! we make our own rukes, we played the name game, and we get candy if we dont csll out and follow the rule, i know i wasnt the best student last year in english, but this is bit much!! And in French i asked the teacher "Why?" to something, and she said "cause when you fail..." and then realized what she said, and changed it to " if you fail" lol I guess it will be fine, i just REALLY miss Rob, and EVERYTHING that happened last year!! Drama started today 1/2 the club was gone, buttttt JULIA ANDREWS was there!!!!!!!!! I sat with her since she really ddint know any one, just Danielle. But that bwas exciting, then we all went home togetgher!! I LOVE HER! and she offered for her friend that she goes with to drive me to school! i said no though, cuz im just friends with Julis and Casey and i really dont know any of there friends? And she complimented my outfit!!!!!!:) ...although it was the one Rob picked out for me -hee, oh well, it still made me feel nice ( i bought nice clothes this year, Rob would be proud!) And Samantha Pagnotta gave me her Christina Aguilera Christiams CD! - not as good as the real ones, but its still christmas, still chrsitina, still awesome! 4 more and i have every album! okay now i have to go cuz i have like a butt-load of homework!!

School Sucks

ok first of all im REALLY mad at z100 for not play Adam’s Song when they were supppose to!! If they play it at 2 in the morning, thats not the dedication hour! grrrrrrrr!
Second school sucks! Like to the point of I want to cry! I really hate it!! I didnt realize it at first, it was fun to see everybody! (Happy birthday MaryElisabeth By the way) like I was tlaking to my friend Julia, and Samantha Pagnotta and it was fun, and I was like school isnt so bad, but then like second per. I just really felt like what am I doing? I never really realized how many seniors were so close to me, like over the summer was one thing, but I used to see them everday here, and now they are gone, it sucks. And I missed Rob more than like anything ever! Usualy now when I thinkof him, I don’t really care, but today I was just like I didnt go to the band roon to see him, I don’t know anyone! I really didnt like it! And I miss bio, I saw miss bernardo, and that was nice, I wish our bio class just turned into my chem class. I really miss Krista to, she is really one of my best friends. Im TAKING FUCKING CHORUS! GRRRR I HATE MRS SANTILLO which why is she stil mrs santillo?? W/e and im in an inclusive english class. Which is still the right class, bu I have 2 teachers cuz our class needs support, cuz all the dumbest kids in school, and me and my friend Danielle are in it, at least I have someone to get me threw that! I have Dwyer for gym, and thats cool, cuz we go way back, and we get along well! Finally getting to Math was the best part of my day! I have the same teacher same period same class as last year, and it was nice, somehting reasuring about it.... I don’t do well with change:( and french was ok too, cuz it was pretty the same as last year too, I hope thigs get better though cuz it really sucks, and I miss last year SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much!, and I hate change like this, and im not even gonna be home to give Adam his birthday presant, or chill with liz craig:( ugh I hope when drama and stuff start it wil be better I didnt rewlly like my classes (eccept bio) last year untill the end of school, so?? BLAH! I just am not happy, and I don’t want to ever go back there! I have high hopes for Eruopin History though! Bgvjbhdukfzghsruisrghgisfuklghgrrrrrrrrrr

ADAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

I hope you have the best birthday ever!!!!

Medium

I went to Old Navy today, i like it cuz they have nice things for cheap, but everything nice comes in XXXL or XXXS, NOTHING! NOTHING! NOTHING NOTHING!!!!! comes in Medium!!!! NOTHING!!!!!!!! i found one shirt i REALLY liked and there was only one in the whole store and it was medium!!:) but it had a stain on it! , i hate being medium, small is too small, and large is too large, but medium is JUST right, but its never carried in anything nice:( oh well, i hope i look good with whatever i have. im nervous.

All Nighter

I stayed up ALL night trying to finish this damn puzzle!! Its still not done but there is only like 100 or so peices left. so from around 2-8 I fitted puzzle peices while listening to z100 with my brother. There was a really funny phone tap on around 7:30, anyway, once i was finally fed up with getting know where on this tedious puzzle, it was toon late to go to bed, so my brother and I decided to walk to the deli, i had peach rings for breakfast!! and i bought some eggs. on the way home we decided to follow the stream back to our house. As soon as we got into the woods, a HUGE Vulture flew by my head, just as the church bells started to chime there erie tune forboding my death! We eventually had to turn back on to the main road, and once we got back on we saw the Vulture perched a top a dead tree with the moon in the background, and at this time the spookly morning church toon had stopped, and it was just going ::DONG::DONG::DONG:: lol, and now im homw watching Ellen!!!! cuz i LOVE her! LOVE!, so i must go and give her my full atetion, that was my CrAzY night/day!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENNY!!!!!

Even though most of everyone cool left to college, im glad Jenny is still here! She is the best!! YAY! i wated to visit her but i woke up too late, cuz im so consumed in this damn puzzle!!! it is 1000 peices, and I JUST want to get it done!!!! i havent slept for real in ever! i went out of the house ONCE since i started with my grandma lol, and we saw Mrs.Steininger, and i was a bit hurt, cuz her and i always got along well and i felt like she liked me, but i walked up to her and said "Hi Mrs.Steininger!" and she didnt even acknowledge me.:( oh well, i just hope Rob isnt saynig things. Good news though!!! I GOT MY ADIDAS IN THE MAIL TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you have no idea how happy i am to have a shoe thats NOT NEW BALANCE and fits me!!! and Sambas are my favorite shoe ever created!! YAY!! so that made me happy, and what made me even happier is that i got my old shoes dirty, so i had to clean them, but now i can just get rid of them so i dont have extra work to do!!:) YAY! oh but bad news my family broke my favorite pair of flip-flops i own, and im very sad:( but the 2 kinda level each other out! ok well Happy Birthday to my number one gal JENNY!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!, and im thinking about having people over to watch a movie or something before school starts so i keep y'all up on that! "Sunny Days Sweaping the Clouds Away,...