This Kiss

So, I may wind up revealing somehting people probably didnt know about me here but here it goes..... Im kissing the wrong people, when i kiss a person i want them to be happy, and smile. I dont want a look of o0o0 ur a whore and this is leading to a sensual evening. Im tired of this, I want one more relationship before highschool it over, i want to see what ive learned and how ive changed. When I was going out with Rob, kissing him was like the most amazing thing ever. Since then ive just been thinking all the people i make out with are terrible kissers, or mabye ive lost somehting. But its the who i kiss! Im kissing people not looking to be happy, im not kissing them because i want to emotionally, but because i want to physically. Im over this, i dont wanna have this lifestyle anymore, i want something real. i dont wanna be seen as a slut. Last year I kissed someone, and I didnt think i liked him but i was juts like wow this was the best kiss ever! I couldnt get over it, and now i realize why, The kiss makes me happy! Kissing him makes me smile, not look at him in a lusting fashion. and vis versa. I didnt really describe everythign i had intented on saying, but i feel better than when i started writing this post.