Sigh

I feel like such a loser complaining about all this, but it just makes me so upset. I want a relationship so bad, i basically just want company i miss like having someone to clal every night and hang out, like i miss it a lot, and its so hard to find someone, and once you do no one ever likes me! AND ITS JUST SO FUCKING HARD! and no one understands, its just not fair, i feel like a horrible creul trick is being played on me and there is no way to escape it, it just goes on forever and ever.