16th Birthday

Wow, so The Year of John is over. sad really. and so far this birthday is just miserable. although for the past 3 hours ive had a nice time... all my plans keep not working though. sigh... anyway im 16 and i fel really old, like 15 still feels like a kid, but 16 is an old person, i dont want responsiblity:( I wish i was a Kimbark. i realized that today. i wanna find someway to become part of their family, like ill be their buttler or somehting? Ive decided looking good is more important than grades and etc. i want to be really attractive. thats all i care abot from now on, and ive become really vain in the past few days.... my mom hates me. so thats going to make my ife harder, i also realized i dont care about too muh of anything. I want to read more Camus. speaking of that i need to pick out a book for summer reading, cuz the 2 i have, i dont feel like reading now, im going to save them for during the year when we need an outside of class book. Very Well HAPPY BIRTHDAY ME! yay:)... and Happy Birthday to Juli(25) and Vincent(29) and my fish pashents and ready (29)