Bubble. Pop. Electric!

Well... I'm gay. I'm begining to hate myself for making such a big deal about it, but i have a few closing words. I'm probably the only person who hasn't excepted it, but I like boys and their is nothing i can do. It's something i wish i never told anyone, because I'm really not happy about it, but I did so now i have to except the fact.
Just because I'm gay doesnt mean I'm not a guy. I'm a guy who likes guys, thats all. And i have to say the two people who see that the most (or make me feel they do) are Adam and Mark, which is great!... I love tlkaing to then about fighting, or girls, or like "guy talk". and even though Adam never fails to make fun of me, and Mark never fails to remind me how weak and pathetic i am, i love the jokes - they're funny!. and Mark is only helping me! Even though they are boys, and therefore very insecure with the fact, I really appreciate how they treat me, and their friendship. They know, except, and treat me like a guy, a friend.
This might be the hardest part to understand... I'm attracted to girls. Juli is a hottmomma!! lol and so is Jenny! If i were given the choice between doing something with a guy or doing something with a girl, I would DEF pick the girl! Which makes me think im bisexual (which is 100% gay and 100% straight, not 50/50) but that might be hard to understand for some people, so if you guys dont belive that it doesnt bother me so much.
Lastly , the only people who don't know are Ricky and Jill Rivera (there are others too), and I'd like to keep it that way for my own personal reasons... i except myself, but that doesnt mean i am comfortable with the whole world know right now (COUGH COUGH LIZ CRAIG COUGH COUGH!) (i thinki spelled cough wrong?) Also with as much guff as i get from everyone, i was happy with the way people responded when i told then about Matt. Esp Adam's. (For all those who dont know, Matt is a guy i like. only wish he felt the same way about me lol)... but anywayyyy thank you all my friends, because this was hard for me, and I think i needed this (meaning this writing) to just be finally over with all the denial nonesense.
Also I dont mind jokes, but I'd prefer if no one puts any stupid comments on this please.